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Your name is Rebecca Chambers, and sometimes—sometimes, you wish you hadn't lived.
Staring into the cracked mirror at your own reflection, a solemn gaze is returned by weary green eyes, bruised from lack of sleep. A tinge of regret sweeps through you, sharp and cold like a needle's jab—a regret that oscillates in intensity with every breath you take.
Your conscience whispers, echoing through the emptiness of the surrounding space. The sound permeates through the dimmed bathroom, bouncing off worn-out tiles and an old, rusty sink.
Out of the corner of your eye—you can't bear to look at it directly—is your private room, lit only dimly by a crack beneath your doorway, a thin slat of golden light piercing the gloom to illuminate your disordered university lodgings. Dark and dusty from its location underground, judgemental and glaring with its tiny cot and crumpled, scattered sheets.
With trembling hands, you clutch at the cold porcelain rim of the sink, your knuckles whitening under the strain. Your gaze never leaves the mirror, even as your heart pounds with a heavy, leaden rhythm in your chest. It's in these moments, when the labored breaths mingle with the distant echoes of your lost comrades—camaraderie extinguished by the cruel cyclone of fate, of betrayal—that you ponder on a sinister thought. One that lurks, as always, in the shadowy corners of your mind: Wouldn't it have been easier not to survive...?
Survive.
That word bears unto you.
It's a weight unmatched, an anchor chained to your existence. Sinking and sinking and sinking, settling low in your belly—queasy, heavy and churning like a fishing boat cast adrift on the ocean of your stupid, brainsick feelings.
Ostensibly, your survival wasn't a mere stroke of luck. It was a calculated result, a reciprocal of your tenacity and sheer willpower.
But you know better.
Trapped within the confines of a fatal, painstakingly manufactured iteration of survival of the fittest, you had clawed your way out, all while leaving your fellow officers who weren't as fortunate behind. Not because you wanted to, but because that's just how the chips fell.
You wish it had been you.
It very well could have been you, and should have. You wish they could be here with you. All of them, and not just those who made it out alive. You hadn't been with them for long, and yet their loss stings worse than anything you could ever have imagined—worse than failure, worse than rejection, worse than others misinterpreting your words and actions.
You swallow hard, a bitter taste coating your tongue as the overwhelming scent of antiseptic washes over you. It's a scent that's become a routine in your life, a poignant reminder of the countless lives lost to a monstrosity that should've never seen the light of the day.
A reminder of the train. Of the training facility. Of the mansion. Of Raccoon City.
Underneath the harsh fluorescent lights, you see it all—the scars, the bags under your eyes, the thin line of your lips pressed together. Sometimes, in the silence of the night, you fantasize about a parallel universe where you hadn't survived, where you weren't burdened by the crushing weight of guilt and regret. But then the day breaks, and sunlight pierces through your fantasy, illuminating the harsh reality of your new existence.
You're alive. You're alive, and you can never go back. You can't go back and do it all over again; you can't go back and save everyone.
But you can remember. You'll always remember.
You release a sigh, tearing your gaze away from your pale, bleary-eyed reflection. You look at your tousled bed and think, I really need to sleep more. But something about this place... this new world... it has a way of resurrecting old wounds you haven't had to endure for years, not since your transportation to the Crossroads.
"I shouldn't have forgotten in the first place," you accuse the mirror, accuse yourself. Yet, as you breathe through the stinging lament washing over you, you're reminded that your survival isn't all that you are—there's something else.
Trading the confinement of your room for the lab, a place where you find solace in the rhythm of... what passes for academia on this untamed world, you are met with an incessant reminder of what you have become.
Down the corridors of the University of Abraxas, your footfalls echo, each step resonating with a resolve that has been hopelessly weathered by time, grief, and biological warfare. The bittersweet taste of persistence is a familiar one on your tongue, a concoction of triumph and loss that you’ve ingested over years of battling the horrific nightmares of your past.
Your reflection in the dull metallic surface of the tunnel wall marks your solitary journey.
On this alien planet of Kraw, you're not the esteemed professor you once were back on Erde Nona, or even back on your iteration of Earth. A sense of belonging, a sense of home, are luxuries that you can't afford here. As the eternal jungle engulfs the horizon, the native flora and fauna, relentlessly hostile, serve as a constant reminder of the endless struggle for understanding, for meaning that your life has become.
But within the sterile confines of the labs, amid beakers and flasks, you find a semblance of peace. Here, you wrestle not with horrific creatures, but with complex pathogens—poisonous plant toxins, reptilian venom, strange flesh-eating diseases contracted from ancient ruins—fighting not with bullets, but with vaccines and medicines. The satisfaction of developing an antidote to some unknown ailment, of knowingly making a difference, grants you a fleeting respite from the gnawing void of despair.
Past midnight, when the lab lights cast long, distorted shadows upon the walls, your thoughts drift towards the soul-sucking vacuum of nothing that has engulfed your memories. Remnants of your past life—a telephone call, a familiar voice, a consoling word—are illusions lost in the swirling vortex of a disconnected reality. You yearn for Chris' assertive candor, Jill's warm empathy, for any scrap of the world you were carelessly plucked from.
Gone. The word rings hollow, ruthless, its emptiness echoing in your heart. They are elsewhere, drifting in a different universe, situated in an inaccessible dimension.
And you, Rebecca Chambers, you are stuck here, trapped in a universe that is not your own.
Yet, as long as your heart beats, as long as your lungs still draw breath, you will continue, you will fight—because you have to.
It's not just about survival anymore. It never was—it's about triumphing over the raw deal that life has handed you, about how damn lucky you are to be alive.
It's about ensuring that even in this alien world, Rebecca Chambers blazes a trail of hope.
In the quiet depths of the night, your thoughts often spiral into that same old abyss of fear and despair, but as morning breaks, you gather the scattered pieces of your resolve. Every day in this otherworldly jungle is another shot at comprehension, another testament to your indomitable spirit. Alone and far from home, the echo of heartaches past fuels your resolve, driving you forwards—always forwards.
Your past might be disconnected, your future uncertain, but when it really matters, when you're not alone and others are counting on you to step up, your training kicks in and you are one hundred percent in the here and now.
Step by painstaking step, you'll carve out your existence in this alien world because giving up, giving in, isn't in your nature.
Staring into the cracked mirror at your own reflection, a solemn gaze is returned by weary green eyes, bruised from lack of sleep. A tinge of regret sweeps through you, sharp and cold like a needle's jab—a regret that oscillates in intensity with every breath you take.
Your conscience whispers, echoing through the emptiness of the surrounding space. The sound permeates through the dimmed bathroom, bouncing off worn-out tiles and an old, rusty sink.
Out of the corner of your eye—you can't bear to look at it directly—is your private room, lit only dimly by a crack beneath your doorway, a thin slat of golden light piercing the gloom to illuminate your disordered university lodgings. Dark and dusty from its location underground, judgemental and glaring with its tiny cot and crumpled, scattered sheets.
With trembling hands, you clutch at the cold porcelain rim of the sink, your knuckles whitening under the strain. Your gaze never leaves the mirror, even as your heart pounds with a heavy, leaden rhythm in your chest. It's in these moments, when the labored breaths mingle with the distant echoes of your lost comrades—camaraderie extinguished by the cruel cyclone of fate, of betrayal—that you ponder on a sinister thought. One that lurks, as always, in the shadowy corners of your mind: Wouldn't it have been easier not to survive...?
Survive.
That word bears unto you.
It's a weight unmatched, an anchor chained to your existence. Sinking and sinking and sinking, settling low in your belly—queasy, heavy and churning like a fishing boat cast adrift on the ocean of your stupid, brainsick feelings.
Ostensibly, your survival wasn't a mere stroke of luck. It was a calculated result, a reciprocal of your tenacity and sheer willpower.
But you know better.
Trapped within the confines of a fatal, painstakingly manufactured iteration of survival of the fittest, you had clawed your way out, all while leaving your fellow officers who weren't as fortunate behind. Not because you wanted to, but because that's just how the chips fell.
You wish it had been you.
It very well could have been you, and should have. You wish they could be here with you. All of them, and not just those who made it out alive. You hadn't been with them for long, and yet their loss stings worse than anything you could ever have imagined—worse than failure, worse than rejection, worse than others misinterpreting your words and actions.
You swallow hard, a bitter taste coating your tongue as the overwhelming scent of antiseptic washes over you. It's a scent that's become a routine in your life, a poignant reminder of the countless lives lost to a monstrosity that should've never seen the light of the day.
A reminder of the train. Of the training facility. Of the mansion. Of Raccoon City.
Underneath the harsh fluorescent lights, you see it all—the scars, the bags under your eyes, the thin line of your lips pressed together. Sometimes, in the silence of the night, you fantasize about a parallel universe where you hadn't survived, where you weren't burdened by the crushing weight of guilt and regret. But then the day breaks, and sunlight pierces through your fantasy, illuminating the harsh reality of your new existence.
You're alive. You're alive, and you can never go back. You can't go back and do it all over again; you can't go back and save everyone.
But you can remember. You'll always remember.
You release a sigh, tearing your gaze away from your pale, bleary-eyed reflection. You look at your tousled bed and think, I really need to sleep more. But something about this place... this new world... it has a way of resurrecting old wounds you haven't had to endure for years, not since your transportation to the Crossroads.
"I shouldn't have forgotten in the first place," you accuse the mirror, accuse yourself. Yet, as you breathe through the stinging lament washing over you, you're reminded that your survival isn't all that you are—there's something else.
Trading the confinement of your room for the lab, a place where you find solace in the rhythm of... what passes for academia on this untamed world, you are met with an incessant reminder of what you have become.
Down the corridors of the University of Abraxas, your footfalls echo, each step resonating with a resolve that has been hopelessly weathered by time, grief, and biological warfare. The bittersweet taste of persistence is a familiar one on your tongue, a concoction of triumph and loss that you’ve ingested over years of battling the horrific nightmares of your past.
Your reflection in the dull metallic surface of the tunnel wall marks your solitary journey.
On this alien planet of Kraw, you're not the esteemed professor you once were back on Erde Nona, or even back on your iteration of Earth. A sense of belonging, a sense of home, are luxuries that you can't afford here. As the eternal jungle engulfs the horizon, the native flora and fauna, relentlessly hostile, serve as a constant reminder of the endless struggle for understanding, for meaning that your life has become.
But within the sterile confines of the labs, amid beakers and flasks, you find a semblance of peace. Here, you wrestle not with horrific creatures, but with complex pathogens—poisonous plant toxins, reptilian venom, strange flesh-eating diseases contracted from ancient ruins—fighting not with bullets, but with vaccines and medicines. The satisfaction of developing an antidote to some unknown ailment, of knowingly making a difference, grants you a fleeting respite from the gnawing void of despair.
Past midnight, when the lab lights cast long, distorted shadows upon the walls, your thoughts drift towards the soul-sucking vacuum of nothing that has engulfed your memories. Remnants of your past life—a telephone call, a familiar voice, a consoling word—are illusions lost in the swirling vortex of a disconnected reality. You yearn for Chris' assertive candor, Jill's warm empathy, for any scrap of the world you were carelessly plucked from.
Gone. The word rings hollow, ruthless, its emptiness echoing in your heart. They are elsewhere, drifting in a different universe, situated in an inaccessible dimension.
And you, Rebecca Chambers, you are stuck here, trapped in a universe that is not your own.
Yet, as long as your heart beats, as long as your lungs still draw breath, you will continue, you will fight—because you have to.
It's not just about survival anymore. It never was—it's about triumphing over the raw deal that life has handed you, about how damn lucky you are to be alive.
It's about ensuring that even in this alien world, Rebecca Chambers blazes a trail of hope.
In the quiet depths of the night, your thoughts often spiral into that same old abyss of fear and despair, but as morning breaks, you gather the scattered pieces of your resolve. Every day in this otherworldly jungle is another shot at comprehension, another testament to your indomitable spirit. Alone and far from home, the echo of heartaches past fuels your resolve, driving you forwards—always forwards.
Your past might be disconnected, your future uncertain, but when it really matters, when you're not alone and others are counting on you to step up, your training kicks in and you are one hundred percent in the here and now.
Step by painstaking step, you'll carve out your existence in this alien world because giving up, giving in, isn't in your nature.
“Like No One Ever Was”
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